How long have you been having these dreams?
They come and go
And what are they about?
They are about lots of things
Like?
Like walls escaping across my field of vision revealing
Revealing?
Revealing other places I'm afraid to go
Have you gone there?
No
Why?
Because at some point I become too afraid
So, it's bad?
I don't know, I think it's too big.
Too big?
Too big for me to comprehend
What's the farthest you've seen?
Nothing
Do you want to see?
I don't know, I don't know if I could take it
Why?
Because I don't know what it is

Writing bad checks
And causing car wrecks.
Drinking coffee
And chewing toffee.

Phone calls after midnight
Coffee
Coffee
Coffee
Six packs
Shots at darts
Women
Friendships
Documents
Email
Shoes
Gloves
Stocking cap
New Car
Bar
Pool
Cycles
Albums
Disc folder
Cigarettes - domestic and imported
Cellular phones
Purchases
Overdrafts

Writing
Movies
Pizza
Burritos
Salsa
Chips
Cheese dip
Bedding
Lamps
Chores
Gifts.

These are:

The Black Light Poems

Joy was of no joy
She played with me
Like strings on
A toy.
It was cool
But then got colder.

From never call again
To what are you doing tonight
It's diminished to nothing
Despite the lonliness
And fright.
Those thoughts are still in my head
It's association and communication
With her
that I
Dread.